My eyes opened this morning
to a light
that I hadn't seen
for a while.
Like an old friend
it placed its hand
lightly
on my shoulder
whispered "Good morning.
Today
is going to be
a beautiful day.
And do you know why?"
And with a sigh-
"Why?"
I asked
a smirk playing upon my face
for I knew
it was you
that had brought me
to this place.
Hello Contentment.
Je suis heureuse
parce que ma femme
a ma couer <3

Aquarius

When the moon is in the seventh house
And jupiter aligns with mars
The peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars

This is the dawning of the age of aquarius
The age of aquarius
-"Aquarius" from Hair

They say
Only a fattass finds fulfillment
In the crevaces of a cookie;
In a piece of a pizza
Pie
And who am I
To disagree
with them, the self-righteous
Masses,
all self-conscious, self-hating
asses
condescending; never-ending
reminding me
constantly
that I’ll never be
good enough
smart enough
pretty enough
for anyone.
The message conflicts
and nothing sticks
but the fat
on my back
and with this whisper
I have the strength
To purge
The words
from my head
And expel these rolls
And assume the roles
Delegated
to
My emaciated
Frame-
No shame
No blame,
Nor pain
Nor sane-
insanity, the way to be
to express
The stress,
This mess.
I attest,
The best
of me
Concealed
beneath
the bile
In my chest.

This random artistic moment was spurred by 3 expresso shots, procrastination, and artistic inspiration. Thus, my friend Alex (unwittingly) posed as my artistic muse. Yes, I know its not that great, but I had fun doing it. Off to draw something else. Hope you guys are having a beautiful day =P

Celebrity Crush of the Moment: Hari Kondabolu

Insightful? Check.
Cute? Check.
Representing the home town? Check.

I love this guy. <3

This Life in Motion
This World in Laughter

Happy Birthday Tina <3

I
am almost sick of being the one
who must always apologize.
With these eyes
I see
the different personalities
and interpretations of things that be
present, past, future.
Change
me, the person who claims you
and you claim to
enjoy me,
but in the context of
this complex luv
I wonder
what the hell
is this hell
I've wandered
into.

Alex

I'm sorry I've been away. There are just some things that I am trying to work on right now. My world is basically falling apart around me, and I'm trying to adjust, trying to pick up the pieces. I'm trying to find who I am. I need you here with me, but you're not. I need to be stronger. I don't know what I need. I love you. Don't be angry. Don't be hurt or sad. I am still here. I always will be. I'll talk to you tomorrow. I hope you read this.

My Paintings

New Years Resolutions:

-Find/keep peace of mind
-Be Happy
-Don't let other people's feelings disturb me
-Don't let other people's actions disturb me
-Be me; Be free
-Keep focused; don't let anyone deter me
-No negative thoughts
-Remember that I am beautiful no matter what I look like